★　it's so pretty it's sad.

☆Monday, April 30, 2007

if U was better than nothing

and nothing is better than A

then a U is better than A!

the above nonsense is courtesy of jiamin.

haha but i need it to make my happier.

i've had 2 Us so far.

for maths and physics.

bloody shit. there goes my chance to take h3?

hurr. i just hope i get promoted.

wahh my studies is in a screw piece of shit lah

wht the hell.

i study for tests.

i really do!

maybe it's just not enough.

ah lau qiuyu is a stupid piece of trash.

-tries to fold my cerebral hemisphere more-

as i observe the ppl ard me

the things happening

and think about my actions.. myself in general

i've come to another conclusion

ahaha

lau qiuyu is an unsociable idiot

today's alr the last day of april

nth has improved has it

私は大丈夫ではあぃません

aiya wht the heck
stop thinking abt it.
can anyone hear my screams?

so i shall.

in my very antisocial world there's tv,youtube,ou xiang jus and s.h.e (((:

and i should be happy.

1.PLAY就快要發行了!我快要與三仙見面啦~~~開心~~(((:

2.花沢類はとても可愛いですね！！！愛してる！私のprinceですよ！！

thanks to my dear hanazawa rui, i've fallen in love with jap again,33

haha. ahh shit now i regret dropping it lah. but i think i still prefer lit. ahaha. i've been learning qt a bit of jap thru hana yori dango toos! 花より男子<33333 hahah.
道明寺司　x　牧野つくし　ｘ　花沢類　いつも！！！

of cos i dare not claim credit for these super charmingg pics and avatar.hahaha<333333

tata!~

missingY O U

☆Saturday, April 21, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANSHAN!!((:

haha.went back school to clear會所..
at first in the morning very積極
den aft lunch started to slow down
hahaha.
tired le ):
basically crapped a lot with jiamin.
LOL.
XDDDD

a few days ago, whn i went back to SN to collect o level cert but more imptly to go visit mr pang ah choy, sth happened tht left qt an impact in my mind.
on the way back frm sn, at the bus stop opp tomato
i was waiting for my bus
and this visually impaired man came along.
he felt me(i think)
and asked me to look out for bus no. 76 for him
i said ok
and nxt thing i knw, he was grabbing on so tightly onto my hand.
instataneously, i felt like i was being relied on, like i was really impt to that man and tht i was responsible for taking car of him.
it's really amazing, the simple help i rendered
and whn 76 came, the way he kept saying thank you just warmed my heart so much.
there are really many ppl who need our help
and seeing their smile after u've helped them is really the greatest reward one can ever have
it's not a feeling the cip hours u've earned can give you.
neither is it a feeling that having a good portfolio can earn you.
it's a simple yet amazing feeling felt from the heart
人與人之間的關係就是這麼的微妙 ((:
助人為快樂之本就是這個意思吧

missingY O U

☆Sunday, April 15, 2007

i am supp to be studying for tmr's maths test.
hehs.
失敗掉了.
i went ivle,smb den started blog hopping
and ended up here
hehs.
i shld really be studying !!!!especially since taking h3 maths is my goal.
but i shall blog first anw since i'm on it le.
i want an A for this test ! (:
i've been hooked onto a new tv show !
hana yori dango<33333
hahahahahs. it rocks lah.
everyone shld go watch (:
like so much better thn the taiwan version!
it's more fast-paced.
the tw one too draggy alr.
i cnt believe i'm standing up for japan against my fav taiwan )):
haha. special circumstances lah.
AND THE 重點 IS.
hanazawa rui is freakkinnnggggg charming !!!!
i knw he is nt considered 帥 those type
but he's damn charming.
he makes my heart liquify and melt into molten state.
and thn when u go electrolyse the molten state of my heart, it will all get attracted to the hanazawa rui electrode<3333[and maybe the sin electrode too.lol]
hahahah.
so i'm damn hooked to hanayoridango!
:ＤＤＤＤ
and i went to download the soundtrack too!
utada hikaru can sing well mans ! ((:
nice :DDD

i think i'm feeling better.
i think lah.
so long i follow closely to my motto in life
凡事看得開,生活就會變的快樂起來(:
i force optimism onto myself.
but it's a good thing lah.
i feel happier.
but sometimes i wonder.
will my optimism be too overboard such that it reaches a state of bo-chapism?
i rmb whn i was in sec 1, silin told me tht she felt tht i was qt bochap.
to be frank, i was shocked.
i nvr thought tht i was considered bochap.
but aft many many failures in my short 16 plus years life, there is really no need to care abt everything so much.
你越在乎,失敗時就越是痛.
it will hurt you so much, right into ur median septum.
seriously.
i rmb sec 2, how i was so so upset aft promotion cos i wasnt promoted.
i expected it though.
but it was still upsetting.
忍住眼淚是痛苦的.
the aftershock of promotions was with me for a few weeks i think.
i couldnt evn talk abt it or think abt it.
i wld just start crying
i rmb jasmine called me to talk abt it
did i evn talk or was it just her doing all the talking?
i was too busy trying nt to let her hear me crying.
aft i got ovr it, it was ok le.
whnevr i look back at tht incident i thought i must be the stupidest person on earth.
there's really nth to cry ovr.
how much tears i wasted ovr it.
and aft i have finally got ovr it and have hidden tht part of me deep down some microvilli in my small intestine, i got the post.
life is ironic isnt it.
whn i finally got used to and liked being a nobody with the other nobodies, i became a somebody.
i was really really shocked.
the little ironies of life.
-冷笑-
thn there was the hc elections.
aft the 2nd time, i think i'm really nt suited to be a somebody.
so i shall just be a nobody and a good follower.
aft all, wht is a leader without followers
haha
i'm important too !(:
it's nt bad being a nobody.... makino tsukushi was a nobody in school too.
tht is until she met tsukasa and rui.
wahahahahs. my heart is starting to melt again :D
how charming and cute can hanazawa rui get?
<3333333

missingY O U